Sometimes, doesn’t life feel like a stage? We’re all actors walking about, playing our little role in the big play of Everyday Matters. It’s only when you take a step back and start taking notes that you get the bigger picture. It’s only when you detach yourself from your character’s point of view that you notice the possibilities. Your life could have been different if you set a foot in the other direction. You make a choice, pick a path to follow and you thread that road you own for a little while and before you notice it, the path owns you and is leading you further and further into a routine, a habit, a custom. It’s comfortable; you’re on a train, watching life out of your window. You’ve got a coffee on the table and feed from around the world on a newspaper. You’ve got a sheet of paper, you’ve got a pen. You start taking notes. That’s when you notice it. You notice how passive everything is. You notice the other paths that are taken by other people, by someone who could have been you. You notice how time is ticking, ticking, ticking as you sit there pumping knowledge and caffeine into your brain. You want free. You realise that on a long enough scale, everybody dies and you panic. What have you been doing with your life lately? Sitting around, taking notes, watching it all from the audience. More and more it feels like you’re doing a bad impersonation of yourself. You want to jump out of the train, run across the fields and start something anew, anything. You wish you could wake up in another place at another time as another person. And that’s when you run, you run backstage, pass the heavy red curtains and into the dressing room where the dresses, the masks, the make up is. You’re naked and you’re wondering who you want to be. It’s there again: choice. Laugh or cry. Hide or shout. Breathe or not. To be or not to be. If you don’t know what you want, you end up with a lot you don’t. We all get to the point where we’ve got keys to unknown locks filling up the basket in the front hall. The outdated issues of fashion magazines stacking up next to our desks. The clothes too small to wear lingering in the back of our closet. It comes the time to throw it all away. It’s the spring cleaning. It’s the moment in your life where you close a door and open seven windows out wide. It’s the moment in life where you have to take a deep breath and just go for it. Change everything: change your clothes, change your hair, change your car, change your bedside book, change your ideas, change your thoughts. Get rid of the habit and open up to the unknown. Try something different. Try something new. You’re not the amount of money in your wallet, you’re not your job, you’re not your entourage, you’re not the shirt you’re wearing. It’s scary. It’s the Big Unknown, act two of Your Life. It’s the nature of inviting. What do I do now?
Listen to: Tablo + Pe2ny – White
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